Thoughts, reflections, and well…..

Dear readers,

I’ve decided to come to terms with certain things, and realized that though how much we try, or how sincere we are, most of the time most things don’t turn out the way we like, people don’t appreciate us, and moreover our actual intention is turned into something its not suppose to be. I really don’t understand how the world works or how people work. I think the world is a wonderful and beautiful place, but its we humans in it, that has turned it into the most ugly thing, filled with lies, deceit, backstabbing, cursing, sin, impure thoughts, and inhumane actions.

It’s tough living in this world today. People that you trust, that are the closest to you, that you can trust yr life with, that you trust understand you, and love you, and whom you think are willing to stand by you, willing to talk it out with you like a grown -up when somethings not right, instead turn around and throw everything rght back in yr face. The saddest part is there’s pretence, lies, and gossip all around. SOmetimes the people around you that are closest to you, are the ones that will break you down to your lowest, and into the core of you. Imagine the heartache, heartbreak, and the deep hurt. It feels as if I’ve taken a knife into my own hands and plunged it into my own chest. Because being hurt or betrayed by others are not so bad, but being done so by people you truly love and care about its like killing me softly, slyly , and its more like a crime of passion.

So what’s the point of this post ? Well this is a post to say that I’m leaving everything behind. I’ve found love, friendship, a truthful, honest, and faithful relationship, that has taught me a lot. I’ve learnt to forgive and just move on, not to dwell or wallow in sorrows, because there is not point in it. Coz as my dearest has said, that most of the time, its the devil that wants to get between us, and try to break us down to our lowest, at the point where we’re reaching a point of breakthrough, or we draw nearer to God. I must say I was at a point of full recovery, but something came about and broke me down again. But thanks to my dear friend, and much needed support, I’m leaving it all behind me now. Moving on to a new start , and new relationships perhaps ??

Anyway hope you guys like the theme And I’m enjoying my holidays, spending time with my beloved brother ( miss him alot as when he works he’s pretty busy ) , my lovely aunt and darling cousin ( hardly get to spend time with them too on usual days ) ….so truly cherish it ….and I’m being BUGGED by my brother !!! Arrgghh that’s the irritating part…haha but its also these times that I actually do MISS !!! when he’s away So I’ll go ” enjoy”  the irritating-ness !!!! Hahahaha I just heard him exclaim loudly in the background,that I love disturbing my sister !!! Hahaha

So long and farewell for now dear readers