Princess Corner

Feelings of uneasiness, uncertainty, and just plain curiosity fill me. I’m a lost wanderer in the desert. A desert of emotions, where feelings are simply tormented, and go up like a sandstorm , when I recall the look in his eyes. A sand storm of past anguish, hurts, dread, anger, uselessness just sweep me over, and continue in me as I think about what the future holds.

I wonder whether I’d dare set my foot , which seems so tiny in the eyes of the world, into the realm and reality of what is actually before me. What if it was just a smile like any other? What if it was just a friendly gesture ? What if it was a way of mocking in disguise ?

What would it be like if it was a sincere smile ? What would it be like if he really likes me ? What would it be like to be in love again ? Would it be sweet, promising, loving, caring and a bed of roses as movies and fantasy novels promise ? I doubt so. Often times its the opposite of that, and its real raw feelings.

However, I’m helpless and keep drowning in memories of that sweet smile that turned a handsome face into a creature that seems almost perfect, glimmering with a glow that shines and paralyzes me. How can I ever dare to look into those eyes again ? I’m too caught in it, and it’ll be so hard to take my  gaze off his fixed , strong , yet gentle gaze.

The net of emotions and feelings has caught me, and I’m stuck to it like an insect in a spider’s web. Will I ever come out of it ? I think I would if I get the closure I want. But how do I do that ? I cannot approach him, as I will make a fool of myself if its all just nothing, and if its all another crush…..