Princess Corner

They’re really nice and soft and its so nice to hug one to sleep….Just feeling the soft fur on my face and smell the nice aroma of softener just makes me feel so nice and cosy….and the sight of their cute faces just make it irresistable especially when they’re displayed on shelves in a store and just scream,” BUY ME !! ” Hmm well you all must be wondering what I’m talking about…..Well here they are below …….:-)

MY STUFF TOYS !!! I just love stuff toys….I like the feeling of holding and hugging one esp to sleep. However my top favourite is TEDDY BEARS…I really love teddy bears…..I always wanted a big big teddy bear…( though that dream can never be fulfilled coz the price tag on one teddy bear can buy me a handphone) so sad..that they cost so much…but anyway I learn to take opportunities…hehe when I do go out shopping and I see a really nice big teddy bear and I feel like I need a hug, I just go up to the bear and put my arms around it and give it a really hard squeeze….Hehe which often results in the other soft toys placed beside it to fall….haha and I have to bend and pick up those that have fallen…Good thing I didn’t get scolded for this b4….Haha but teddy bears have been something I really liked since I was a kid. I used to have a lot more teddy bears and more soft toys then the ones you see. I even had a teddy bear which was as big as a 2 yr old kid…..BUT…..:-( I decided to part with it when I was about 11 or 12. There was a lady which sweeps on the road outside my house at that time and she had a little girl which followed her and she didn’t have any toys to play with and she also had other siblings at home…So I thought why not bless this girl with my stuff toys and teddy bears,since I had so many…And I literally put all my toys in a huge plastic bag and handed them over to the lady. Then, I was still clutching my big teddy bear in my arms …and the small girl looked at it so longingly and I decided to hand that over too. I told myself that I shouldn’t hold on to my possesions and so I gave her my teddy bear…..

After that I didn’t have anymore soft toys and this few left is a collection over this few years…Well its obvious that I don’t get much soft toys anymore when I grew older…Hehe and I only have two teddy bears now….And only the white one is big enough to hug….Hmm still dreaming of my big teddy bear someday….Hmm but I think I don’t need it ,its just something I really like …and teddy bears do have a certain “teddy” smell that I can’t describe…Haha I sound obsessed a d …but i’m not ok….Well maybe I do need more hugs from my friends !!! ( haha big hint ) Cause really I hardly get hugs from anyone this days….as in really warm and big hugs not the pat on the back hug…..Anyway hugs to you all who read this !!!

A teddy bear gives a nice hug…hehe thats partly why I like them too. However it would be nice to have a hug returned right??

So my post today is to tell about my favourite stuff…Hehe and my interest in teddy bears…Plus just for all readers to know I never bought a teddy bear…All of it was given to me   and I just heard that now we can custom make yr own teddy bears in Sunway Piramid !! haha but don’t think I’ll waste money like that …..hope you guys enjoyed reading

I get into the driver’s seat, revv up the engine put in the 1st gear and release the handbrakes…..My right leg taps the accelerator peddle and left leg slowly releases the clutch. Off goes my car…..and with me driving…in a short distance i shift to the 2nd gear and step further on the accelerator peddle…Haha my car has been moving faster over the weeks , as i’m getting used to it. Didn’t bother to glance over at my dad to see whether he was having a heart attack ( resulting from my driving ) Haha busy looking at the rear-view mirror and side mirrors…I guess I’m not that fast yet, still careful. I slow down as I approach the junction press the clutch and make a U-turn…And continue on the road …Yipee!! “Tak mati enjin”…hahaha I continue in this fashion going round a small roundabout,going down a straight road make a U-turn and back to the roundabout. However after a number of rounds……..

As i headed down again the road leading to the U-turn,I switched from 2nd gear to 3rd gear …and the car speeds up even more…then I recalled my go-kart experience..hahaha…anyway back to my story, I then shifted back to “2nd gear” as i needed to slow down to make the U-turn…I felt something was wrong when i changed gear and so I turned to my dad and asked ,” Is it in the right gear ?” He replied …” Yup I think so …” And I pressed the clutch to slow the car even more thats when i noticed a car facing the wrong way on my left lane so i kept to the right and made my U-turn,and I realized the car was too fast..I hit my brakes just as my dad screamed..BRAKE and TURN !! haha so thats what I did but my car enjin died and another car had come to the junction,and was looking at me as I was stuck in the middle and trying to re-start my car. After I managed to get the car moving again then my dad tells me you were in the wrong gear…I had switched to the 4th gear instead !! Arrghhhh I was frustrated….Its not easy to change gears…haha I think I’m so rough when I change gears….haha like race driver only ( konon ) Anyway the car you see in the pic is the old faithful car…that I drive..the langley…Well It is a powerful car and a nice one to drive too…Can’t wait to get my licence:-) Hmm so don’t be suprise if you see a langley tearing dwn the Kesas highway or around KK…hahahaha

P/s: Just thought I’d shared this experience with you all….something to excite or scare you guys ?? hehe you decide.

Well today is definitely a brighter day …. I think I shouldn’t dwell so deeply and allow myself to be enveloped by all my emotions and struggles. I made up my mind this morning to hold my head up high and still continue to press on and believe God is always there for me. And I must say I am really blessed as I have some wonderful people around me that loves me so much and yesterday I hurt one person really bad with my words. Then I realized how much I have been only looking at how bad my struggles are and not realizing that a dear person was so very concern about me. And because of my own bottling up and drawing away that I myself felt distant and didn’t allow any help to come my way. I am very sorry for hurting that person.Anyway… … continue reading this entry.

Well today was like any regular Saturday for me….I woke up went to work at my aunt’s art school until 11 then headed home. I was so exhausted as my body wasn’t feeling too good today and last night we went for a late night movie . ( Me and a bunch of really nice ppl ) Anyway ….what I was looking forward to was the lunch that we were suppose to have together. The whole committee of my church youth group. After that I headed on to church and got to use the wireless internet for a while with my Eepc….haha how nice ( incase some of you don’t know I can’t use  it at home coz my home internet is a dial-up one ) ( still in the process of persuading dad to get a wireless one .

After that, we had band practice and it was fun to hear ideas from different ppl and to experiment different sounds…We were being taught how to arrange songs….Soon after was dinner time and then we had youth. Well I thank God for friends and I really had a fun time during lunch and  all the time spent in church. My title said 60% only coz on the inside I was feeling really really down again. Lately I’ve been having mood swings in the sense of me being emotional one minute then the next I’m fine. One moment I can be really happy doing my own things at home and the next I can be in tears thinking about my own life. I’m honestly struggling to see my purpose in life. I feel so  lost and  uncertain of what to do. I don’t know what has become of myself. I feel I have been distaning myself from my friends. I have practically no one to relate anything to. I’ve shut in my problems so much and make it seem like everythings ok when inside it feels like my whole world is collapsing. I miss  a very dear friend of mine…I don’t know why but suddenly  its like I feel  my friend has drifted miles apart  in a few days. I  really feel like dissapearing from this place away from all this pain we have to go thru  daily as humans. … continue reading this entry.

Sigh…I got tagged by someone requesting me to write about my childhood…haha which is something I don’t really like to talk about except for certain parts…I think I was quite good as a child but michievious sometimes hahahaha…I think I was bossy tooo….hahaha anyway here it goes …..

Well I was born on the 3rd of December 1990…. at 10 am hahaha at a klinik in PJ. I was an easy one to deliver hahaha ( unlike my bro who had to be pulled out with forceps) hahaha. My mum said I came out like in 5 mins ( hahaha i think she’s exaggerating) but anyway it maybe true to as I was born premature….(I was born 29 days early ) Hahaha thought I’m happy now as my b’day comes earlier hahahaha. Anyway I wouldn’t publish my picture haha as I was very small and looked so frail and wrinkly…..Haha and reddish skin as well…I was premature(couldn’t wait to see the world) hehehe

Well as the months went on my mum misfed me ( I mean seriously she gave me wrong amount of milk at the wrong timing ) Haha and it wa tooooo much…Well I guess you all know what happened next ….I ballooned instantly ! So after that I became really fat…..and I mean really fat ! hahaha still get teased for it till today …My aunt always says this…

Aunty Blo : You were so chubby that I would have to prop you up with two pillows on both sides to make sure you sit up properly to take a picture…and then 1,2 ,3 Smile !!! And before I can press the button on the camera you’ve already fallen down to one side !

Hahaha So thats how fat i was…..Anyway I loved to eat too. My mum said I would hold my favourite biscuit in my palm using all five fingers to enclose it….then if anyone trys to help me with the biscuit i would scream and burst out into tears !! Haha it was also said that I would cry at Sunday School and if I was given something to eat I would calm down but once I finish I’ll start crying again….Hahaha in other words I was a cry baby …hehehe

I started reading at 3 yrs old and quickly progressed to reading the headlines on the newspaper as my dad was reading ( hahaha poor dad couldn’t have peace to read on his own ) Always asking what’s that word mean ? What’s this word mean ?

I liked to sing since I was young…haha I still remember ( and my mum confirms it ) I would take this small little stool I had big enough to stand on and put it in one corner of the kitchen. Then as my mum cooked I would stand on in and sing at the top of my lungs and pretend I was on a stage performing ! Hahaha and the best part is I would get so carried away singing till I fell off the stool . And still it was my favourite thing to do everyday . haha …and one more thing which would be something I do in my free time as a kid would be educating my dolls and soft toys . hahaha I would sit all my dolls and soft toys in front of myself and teach them and read storybooks to them .Haha

And my favourite food was …….my mum said EVERYTHING !!! Haha and milk was number one on my list till today .hahahaha I wasn’t hard to feed I’ll eat everthing given to me…Though today due to some bad encounters with the food I don’t eat prawns,bitter gourd and celery.

The number one thing I dislike is DURIAN! Thats one thing I never touched even as a child.

Lets see….since I didnt put any pictures I’ll describe myself ….When I was young I had very dark coloured hair and big black eyes, and my lips were always a red ( as if I wore lipstick ) and my mum still doesn’t know why…Well most ppl said I was very cute when I was young and most would end up saying what happen to the eyes ?? Haha which actually sounds bad as if I’m really bad looking now ( sigh maybe I am huh ?? ) My grandma blames it ont the glasses …always asking me to wear contacts…haha anyway when I was about 2 I lost most of my fats already and after that grew lengthwise….haha.

One more thing that really stood out when I was young I like to play make believe and I lovved to talk. My mum said when I was about 3 or 4 I would go out every evening to the front porch fence and wait for the indian uncle staying next door to come out to do this gardening. Then I would talk to him ( about dunno what …till today my mum still doesn’t know how i could hold a conversation so well ) the whole one hour that he does his gardening. And he would entertain me…hahaha dunno what i was talking about ( dun remeber )

Well I guess thats all about me. Here’s something that till today my parents and bro would laugh about .

Remember the don’t drink and drive advertisements years back that they used to air? Well I would often see it on tv . ( I was about 4/5 )Then one day in the car we were travelling back to Malacca in the car . Below is a dialogue of what happened …..

DAD : Hey could you uncap the bottle so that I can have a drink of water ?

MUM : Ok ….Here you go ….

DAD: Thanks ( Dad takes a gulp of water )

SARAH I lean in between the seats and say ) Daddy !!! You can’t drink and drive !!! I saw it in the TV !

DAD and MUM : ( well burst out laughing )

They did try to explain to me that the drinking was liqour but I just wouldn’t budge with what I learnt from the TV . hahaha ( moral of the story….One i was stubborn since young hahaha ….two….the media does influence a lot …and three don’t drink and drive ! hahaha

Hope you all get to know me better…I had other ” kid say the darnest things moments ” but I think I’ll save them for future

It was a sucess !! Though not all that registered showed up but the run was great ! I think everyone that was there could say how much fun we had…. but I was really very tired yesterday…Didn’t get to sleep well…I think I only slept for about an hour plus….erm well for some reasons la…..but anyway I was so sleepy yesterday I didn’t have the energy to blog about my experience yesterday …HAahahah I slept yesterday night from 10 pm to 10 am this morning…hahahaha anyway back to the topic….I forgot to take camera…so i didnt get pictures of the whole event….ARRGGHHH…but anyway it was really fun…I helped out marshalling on the road and the first runner for the men was really fast, he took 39 mins to finish 10 km ….haha don’t think that will ever be possible for me….but I’m thinking of training and maybe taking prat next year if it is organised again….haha…..

I was just reading the newspaper before I came here to blog and I read about a kid in Alor Setar whose 15 yrs old and has been locked in a cage because he’s hyperactive. He has been locked up for 5 yrs. It just breaks my heart as people seldom know how to handle conditions like this and they do things like this to protect the child. But are they really helping him ? I don’t think so. Furthermore, in my opinion I don’t think the boy is only hyperactive by the description given. He is hyperactive and he may have a high chance of being autistic ( they said he doesn’t regcognise his family members and doesn’t speak ) I may be wrong but I do think there is a possibility. The point that i want to say is people out there need to be more educated in order to know that this is not the end of the road and the child still can be helped and make his own life useful. My heart really ached as I have experienced teaching children with learning difficulties and honestly I do miss teaching them and knowing that they can actually learn to control themselves and be educated even in terms of doing simple daily life things. Its time we make a change and a difference. I would definitely share this opinion with ppl that hopefully can help to make this disabilities known. And I think we need to pray for more doctors that can not only diagnose a child with  disabilities but actually give them the help that they need or refer them to proper places where they can receive help. And we also need more centres that charge way less for fees as most of the time ppl dont go to get help because they can’t afford it.

Haha I guess most ppl reading my blog would know what I’m talking about….hahaha but for the sake of those who don’t well there’s gonna be a community run right her in Kota Kemuning…and believe it or not the number of  participants have gone up from about a hundred to a shocking four hundred plus…We don’t even know where this people are coming from. Anyway I’m really happy for the organizers as everything is turning out fine and well and sponsors and volunteers help has been obtained and hopefully everything runs smoothly on that day itself….And most of all we’re all praying for good weather….Well I really thank God for the good response as without HIm many things wouldn’t be possible. This will be a good opportunity for all of us to reach to our neighbours regardless of race, religion and social status . Many time these days we forget about the importance of being strongly and closely bonded as one . Well for those of you that will be there, see you this Sunday !

I know the post before this is super gloomy…It was supposed to be published this afternoon but something went wrong and it didnt get posted until just recently. Anyway my point of writing this post as you can see is to thank my good friend Mr Leon Lim for his great help and effort that he put in to help install programmes for my new notebook. He spend the whole night and whole day (today) to fix it up for me. Thank you so much …and he also contributed to it financially. Thanks also for that. Really really appreciate yr help ….and its really a nice gesture as not many of my friends do stuff like that for me…it means a lot too me ( oh no getting emo a d and eyes all teary ) Promise I’ll take good care of it….and dunno what I’ll do without yr help. Thanks pal !!

p/s: Thanks also to all of you who were there and stood by me when I had to make frustrating decisions and thanks for the advice . I really had a good time with you guys

Oh dear, I’m feeling so blue and down today ( or rather since last night ) that its showing on my blog too. Well for a start, I had a great time at supper with ppl who are very dear to me, but the upsetting moments happened before that. Well put it this way…My patience was tested to the limits and I’m really hurt. I guess its all coz I’m a person that likes to keep everything inside. I can have gone through the worst situations ever but I’m able to keep a positive and composed front in front of others. However, I don’t agree to this character trait of mine as its quite bad to keep everything to oneself. its really not good in the long run. Therefore it comes back to me being down and blue. Incident after incident has happened and I feel worst and worst after each time I get hurt or get angry…Friends please don’t ever get yrselves into this kind of situations as its really hard to overcome after. tell ppl when you have problems. I think its reeally ok to even break down in tears in front of others but I find that tough.

I’m really sorry if this post just brings all yr moods down or make you feel blue as well. I don’t intend to do so. I just feel much better after I express myself like this. Sorry also if it offends anyone.