Questions, questions but where are the answers?

Mind-provoking questions are currently flooding my mind.

It’s hard, harsh and tough.

It’s time to make decisions; life-changing ones.

Reality is setting in, and priorities are being questioned.

Tired of the questions that I have no answers to.

Exhausted; thought-wise.

 

 

Everything Happens in Time; His Time.

It’s all about timing. I’m seriously serious about timing. Like I cannot stand people that are always late, for whatever function or appointment. It’s pretty inconsiderate in my books; making others wait. 

But somehow, when it comes to God I must say that He’s never late in His timing. It’s pretty simple actually, just cause; everything happens in His time. 

He doesn’t make a promise, then not be there. He is always there. It’s just a matter of time as to when He gives us our replies to petitions or prayer needs we’ve committed to Him. 

I must say, God never fails to amaze me  with His timing and the way He allows things to happen. Sometimes its amusing, sometimes it kills me to wait, sometimes I get tired of waiting, sometimes I want an immediate answer, sometimes I wish there won’t be an answer. But most of the time, I’ve learned with time and maturity, to wait on the Lord. 

To slow down, take a breather and wait on Him. To be more still and quiet, rather than go on and on ranting or asking. Sometimes it just takes a quiet moment. 

Learn to wait on the Lord, and allow Him to work wonders; coz really, He knows BEST! 

You’re Really Special!

There’s more to this then what you see yourself as,

Your sight has been blurred by stereotypes,

Your judgments are based on the rumours and gossips you hear;

You degrade yourself by being the shallow person you think you ought to be.

You live up to the way you are expected to,

You lose the essence, the beauty, the wholesomeness of yourself that’s truly you;

When you try to fit into what the world sells as beauty and fame.

You lose all respect, dignity and self-worth when you choose to comply and behave the way you do.

Learn to respect yourself and look at yourself as someone who’s truly you; not someone you want to be.

And hopefully someday, one day, you’ll see it brings out the best in you, and makes you the beautiful, unique, one and only you.

p.s: <3

Room- Makeover … Completed!

Aha! I did blog about this sometime back abt revamping my room, and had been working on it, painting it, spring cleaning, throwing all my junk away, and packing everything up.

Then came the decorating part, and choosing the colour code for the beddings and curtains etc. Today was the final time I paid a visit to Ikea to get the last of the stuff I needed to complete my room makeover. So everything’s pretty much done and I’m happy with the result, that I am having second thoughts of going back to my place near my U when I resume my studies in Jan. Sighs…. Oh well, looking on the bright side, I get to enjoy my newly revamped room for two months!!

The only thing lacking is the world map that I have yet to frame up. I’ll get to it soon… haha, if you know what soon means

Well, enough of my babbling, here are some pictures for your viewing.

The name plaque on my door. haha! Had it for many years, but decided to mount it on a piece of wood before putting it on the door. 

Check out my new curtains, and curtain rods. And I know the bed is a tad too blue, but oh well, what can I say, I love the colour!

The wardrobe that’s bursting with clothes. haha! 

As the wardrobe was bursting I needed a chest of drawers to help contain the junk, and it also serves as a dresser

So, that’s the end of the room makeover, now I can hold slumber parties. haha!

The denim fever!!!

I have this craze for all things denim. I love my jeans so much I could sleep in them. Denim jeans are my most favourite form of attire. Just gotta put on a pair of nice jeans, and anything goes with it, be it a tee or a tank top or a blouse. haha!

I love the fact that whenever I’m in denim, whether its  skirt, a pair of jeans, a dress or even a jacket, mixing and matching with other clothes and even shoes don’t need much of a hassle. Denim practically goes with anything. haha!

So another thing in my bucket- list is to own lots of denim. haha! Meaning I want all forms of jeans that suit my butt and in many colours, and it’ll be even more blissful if I can later get a job that allows me to go to work in denims/ jeans

 

 

 

Another plus point is that denims go well with anything, whether its a pair of sexy heels, or my favourite loafers, or just simple ankle high boots Enough said eh?

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So here’s to denim and jeans!!! You can almost never go wrong with denim

The-Bucket-List

I’m inspired by a very dear friend, and have therefore come up with a bucket list of things to do, while I’m still alive and breathing. I’m thinking of just creating space for 20 things-to-do. Some of the things can be achieved, some are just dreams, some can be fulfilled now, some will take a lifetime to fulfil. It’s gonna be a bucket list of things I want, or wanna do, and hmm, let’s just see what other interesting things creep up my sleeve!! I won’t reveal all twenty things in this one post, instead it’ll take a few weeks, maybe months or years to finish up everything

Here it goes for the current thing that I wanna do that will go into my bucket list, and hopefully I get to do it I’ll try to be as subtle as possible…..

I WANNA SEE STOMP LIVE IN KL !!!! haha, oh well, I tried to be subtle, wasn’t it subtle enough? It has always been my dream to watch STOMP live, and I’ve only seen them on TV before, it was awesomeness !! (is there even such a word? haha) Anyway, this year, their coming to KL, and and AND its very near my birthday, and actually they’ll be here even on my birthday. haha! So I really really hope I get to go this time round. Though I’m still kinda doubtful about the venue. It’s gonna be held in the KL Convention Centre, and the last time I was there for ‘Grease Lightning the Musical’, the sound system was bad… not as good as Istana Budaya. So that’s my only worry.

 

So here’s to the first wish in my bucket-list!!! Tickets to STOMP!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Look out for more posts on ‘The-Bucket-List!

 

Gestures

Sometimes when your down, lonely or just feeling kinda all emotional, and you don’t even know what’s bugging you. Sometimes you get so agitated over the slightest of matters and later on regret behaving that way. Have you felt so?

For me, most of the time I blame it on PMS. But then again, if I were to actually sit down and think long and hard, its hardly anything to do with PMS. Yes, PMS makes one more vulnerable and more agitable, coz it sends us ladies on an emotionally, hormonally controlled roller-coaster. (though this only applies to some ladies)

And usually at the moments where I feel so down and out, and sometimes its just so so hard to share with anyone, even the ones closest to you. Well, not that they wouldn’t listen, but just ’cause sometimes we all get busy, the mood isn’t right, the timing isn’t right, and well, usually I just don’t wanna burden anyone with all my troubles or ramblings. I mean who enjoys bombarding people with their troubles and worries???

Its during this moments that I always have my closest mates to count on. Its like telepathy or something. Without me telling them anything, I’ll just receive a text, a tweet, an email and sometimes just a phone call, which makes everything feel a lot better. This always reminds me that I’ve always got good friends around me. I say good friends, as I can always count on them

Recently, I received two little tokens from my two buddies, a small gesture… and honestly, it moved me, though most people would think its nothing, but I think its the awesom-est thing, and such a sweet gesture. Nowadays in this materialistic world, these kinda things are not appreciated anymore. For me, its something old-school, yet it is such a valuable practice that needs to remain amongst us.

Well, enough of me rambling, let the pictures do the talking:

A little something from a dear someone, just out of the blue, a lil’ surprise  

A handmade thank you card! Awesome no?

The inside of the card <3

So let’s just end this post by saying, “Thanks for being there whenever I needed you gals!!”

HUGGSS !!!

 

Plan B

Things don’t always go as planned and Plan B should always be on stand-by. Sometimes I don’t understand why things happen the way they do, but it has happened and more is bound to happen, and sometimes we just won’t understand why it happens.

For some of you that must be wondering what I’m getting at, well let me just give you some overview about what has been going on with my eyes. Well to be more specific, its my right eye. Since last year, I had problems with it. I had this infection which occurred suddenly out of the blue. (I wasn’t even wearing contact lens yet)

Somehow, the infection created a scratch on my cornea and there was a little part of the cornea that dislodged. The doctor managed to fix it. I’ll not go into details, hence any of my readers start freaking out. However, later on after it healed, or so I thought, and so did the doctor. I was given the green light to wear contact lens- and so I proceeded to do so.

Then, the problems began. Because contact lens stay on yr eyes, when I removed them, it was like a suction and it dislodged that same part of my cornea again. I was on MC for like a week plus, coz I really couldn’t see and was in so much pain. In actual fact, it was so scary.

After that, I never touched my contact lens again and resorted to stick with my glasses- thinking that the problem would not occur again. However, after a few months, the problem occurred again(even without the use of contact lens), and the epithelial layer of the cornea kept either loosening or giving me so much pain that I had to be permanently on eyedrops every few hours a day and eye gel at night before I went to sleep. And the problem kept recurring every few months.

Therefore, when the doctor offered me a permanent solution, I decided to get a procedure done to get rid of the problem permanently. I resorted to PRK surgery. Due to my hectic schedule in University and in church-related things, I chose the date which I thought would be the best and most ideal, which was yesterday, 20th August 2011. It seemed like the best date, coz I was getting two weeks off from Uni and exams were just over. I had everything planned out, when to do surgery, recuperate, get my other duties done, revamp my room, visit grandma and the list goes on.

So I got ready yesterday and headed to the clinic to get the procedure done. As I mentioned earlier, sometimes things are beyond our control and we don’t understand why God let things happen, but sometimes its just beyond our control. I waited for my turn a the doctor’s place, and it was certainly a long wait. Then after the doctor did all the final checks that he needed to do, the nurse came in and told the doctor there was some problem with the machine.

So I had to wait some more while the doctor went to check out the machine. Then, he returned and apologized and told me I couldn’t do the procedure as the machine was having problems, and he said he would call me when the machine was fixed. I told him I needed to get the procedure done asap as Uni will begin in two weeks-and its a short semester, so I cannot be missing classes. He said he’ll try his best, as he’s depending on the technician.

Honestly, I was disappointed and quite upset, as I had everything planned. However, looking on the bright side, I thank God that the doctor realized the machine was giving problems, as if he had found out only half way through the surgery, that would be so….. I think you get the picture. To my understanding, maybe God didn’t want me to get it done yet, and well I’m just trusting everything will happen in God’s time. So I’ll keep praying and waiting.

So what was plan B ?? Well, since I didn’t get the procedure done, I decided to begin my room revamp first. And I’m so happy I managed to completed my room walls !! Its all newly painted and looks brand new. Daddy dearest gave me a hand and we both completed painting the room this morning. Thanks Dad !

Here are some pictures:

First, we white-washed the walls yesterday evening. 

Then, we painted the blue paint 

The shade of blue is so nice right ? Well, of course, coz yours truly selected the colour !! haha. 

I know I need to change my curtain rods and my curtains. Can’t stand the flowers anymore. haha! This curtains are going to go to my place in Cheras, and I’ll get new ones for my crib here

My rooms nearly done. Next would be just furniture, curtain rods, curtains and beddings and I’m done with my room revamp !! Not to forget the world map and pictures to decorate my room.

Hmm… I think I need to repaint my door too. After that, my girl friends can come for sleepovers!! Sorry guys, would love to have you over too, but erm… my parents would freak out  :-)

So yea, thats what happened this weekend. Such an eventful weekend. Looking to what’s ahead. Before I end this post I just wanna say thanks to everyone who has been so supportive of my surgery, thanks for your fb posts, texts, calls and even for my bestie who came all the way to the clinic with me, and for our church members that dropped by the clinic. It really meant a lot. Sorry for the postponed surgery, but it your support and prayers meant a lot, really. Thanks !! And do continue praying.

Have a great week ahead people! Try to look on the bright-side even when things don’t turn out the way we like. Signing off !

My other half !

Yeap, you guessed it right, this post is going out to my other half !

I’ve known my other half for around 18 years now. We’ve known each other since we were kids, our parents got along just fine, and we went to the same kindergarden, were playmates and went to church together.

Most would think that over the years as we grew up that our little friendship would end, and maybe get a little dramatic especially when we reached our teen years- going through crushes, hormonal changes, and searching for our own identities.

During our teen years, there was a time where distance became a huge factor, and with me shifting to a new township and a new church, our relationship was a little strained. We did keep in contact, but it was very minimal.

Then somehow, someday, we started talking again- like we never lost contact ever, It was like we picked up where we left off. Thank goodness we live in an era where technology brings us so many benefits, and distance no longer became a problem.

My other half has been there for me always- for the good times, for the bad times, for happy times, or sad, hitting rock bottom times. Always there to listen, there to advice, always knows when to speak and when to be silent, knows when to scold me, and when to endure my whining.

My other half loves me for who I am. Looks are important- we’re both equally vain, both equally dumb blondes and tech-noobs, yet we stick together through thick and thin. I think I’ve never said it, but thank you so much for being there when I needed a shoulder to cry on. I can’t express how much it meant when you showed up for my grandpa’s funeral. I truly appreciate it. ( Hugss !! )

I’m sure dear reader that you’ve guessed by now, that my other half is not anyone of the opposite gender, but my other half is female. And we’re not lesbians okay, we’re both straight girls that are interested in men, but we’re like sisters. We’re soul sisters, as she always puts it

We have so many things in common, yet there are also things that differentiate us. We both believe in putting God first above everything, We both like to read, we both like cars, we both like coffee and chocolate, we both like hot guys, we both like dogs, etc. BUT at the same time, I’m studying language and she’s studying psychology & international studies, as well as Egyptology. Yes, she’s superwoman !! Doing double degrees at the same time. She’s my hero She loves history, and I can’t recall what I learnt in History. Yet, we still get along just fine.

In other words, I’ve found a true true friend that has stood by me all the way. I’m so blessed to have you as a true friend, and most importantly as a sister. Let’s turn 21 together awesomely- vain and fabulous !! haha!

Much love Michelle Low Hui Yee <3

                 ”Here’s to 18+ years of friendship & sisterhood!!!”

“Thought I’d include Anya’s pic, in case she got jealous”  :-)

The transformation begins !!!

I was just watching this program on a local television cable, which was called, “Dress My Nest”. It was fun watching the designer create a new look for the lady which called for their assistance. As I was watching the program, I thought to myself, I’m stepping into adulthood (officially), this year, and I was just thinking about my room revamp. Is it to symbolize maturity? Or am I actually maturing?

I started looking through Ikea magazines today, old ones and new ones, you name them I was not only looking at furniture, but I was looking at curtains and beddings- from sheets right to quilts. I started “shopping” virtually, picking out things I liked and marking the pages.

Then, I started counting the $$$. You see, not everyone is born with a golden-silver-bronze or whatever colour spoon in the mouth, whereby everything is given when requested, or finances are easier. I’m brought up in a middle income family, and being the ‘adult’ I am supposed to be, it also applies financially. Extra things I want, its all from my own pocket. Therefore, careful consideration has to be taken to thought before spending my hard-earned money. (Yes, I work part-time)

I even looked at lighting, and went back to my room looking at what else can be thrown out, so that I don’t have all the junk in my room. Then I started pondering on the colour I would paint my walls, and after staring at the calendar- I realized I can probably finish my room by the end of the month !! Yay ! Minus the beddings and curtains. I’ll get the major stuff like the lighting, walls and furniture done first.

Then comes the dilemma of stuff to hang on the wall. I’ve decided not to put borders on my walls, but now is to think what to put on my walls. I really want to put up my world map, and the frame of dog pictures that I created Then, I would have no place for the jigsaw puzzles I have. Anyway, those details can be added on later.

What I’ve discovered is my taste has matured, and I dare say I have good taste, and good colour coordination. Must have rubbed off on me, after working on various projects over the years with my beloved aunt

So below are some pictures to show you what the room looks like now, I’ve shifted around the furniture, but the rest of the transformation has yet to begin.

Exhibit one

Exhibit Two

That’s what my room looks like currently. For some prior knowledge, this was originally my bro’s room. He tied the knot, and has a place of his own now. My old room was turned into a study room, and I inherited his room.

I know my curtains are super girly, mind you, I didn’t choose ‘em. And the circles on the walls, are all my bro’s. So, am so gonna make my ‘statement’ in this room

Till then readers !